My sweet baby Ava is now 11 weeks old! How the time goes. I will probably always say that because we all grow up so fast - that our parents even look at us and say - where did the time go. I am still in aww... and at times I look at her and can't believe I created her and she is in my life. As I was growing up, all I wanted to be was a mommy, and now I have my Ava. Everything in my life has changed since she was born. I want her to have the world and make sure she knows everything she can. She has a blank slate and she has so many ways she can go.
I go back to work in a little over a week. I am sad to go back. I like my job - mainly because it pays the bills, but I want to stay with Ava. I love being home and taking care of the house and watching her do cute things. Once I go back to work - I will have less time with her, but the time I will have will be much more special. Maybe once I go back to work, my feelings will change. However, I still dream of opening my own bakery one day - maybe one day when I get back on track.
School is school - can't wait till it ends. I think that has to do with the fact that the time it takes me to do school work I rather be with Ava. She is my life - and I just want to hold her always!
Ava did really well with her shots. She cried when they went in - but after a big hug from mommy, she was ok. She never got sick and didn't sleep extra that day. Hopefully they worked! I was a little sad when I watched the needle go into her legs - but I know when she realizes what is going on - I will be strong. I just don't like seeing her in pain, and crying. I want to make everything all better.
So, my weight. I didn't gain that much with Ava during the pregnancy. A lot of people where nervous about me putting on extra weight and going back to what I was before Ava. I gained 14 pounds with her. I lost 12 while I was in the hospital, then lost another 8 at home quickly. Since then I have been steady at my current weight. I need to get back in the mode of excerise. I do have to say - picking up Ava does give me a weight work out! 11 pounds at her last appointment. She really can eat!
Thursday, December 1, 2011
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
8 weeks!
My baby turns 8 weeks tomorrow! I can't believe how the time is flying. She changes everyday. Her neck is getting stronger, and she is becoming her own. She can now pick her head up and hold it for a few more seconds every day. She has such cute facial looks and is just so precious. She was at her cousin's 2nd birthday party a couple of days ago - and she was so good. She was calm and let anyone hold her. She met her cousin Makayla (8 months old) and Makayla gave her a big kiss. She met more of her extended family.
School is going well. Got 1 week down, 5 more to go. But that just means that I have to go back to work. I am going to have a hard time once I go back. Being with her at all hours of the day and only not being with her for at most 4 hours, then going to not be with her for 9 hours a day, 5 days a week - its just going to be hard. I would love to stay home with her all day - but right now, just can't do that.
Next week Ava gets her shots. Wondering how she will do with that. Nervous, but I know it will be ok. We will get through it. It's hard to see her cry when she is tired - so when I know she is in a little bit of pain, it will be tough. But I will be there and let her know it will be ok.
I can't get over how much I love her and how much she has changed me.
School is going well. Got 1 week down, 5 more to go. But that just means that I have to go back to work. I am going to have a hard time once I go back. Being with her at all hours of the day and only not being with her for at most 4 hours, then going to not be with her for 9 hours a day, 5 days a week - its just going to be hard. I would love to stay home with her all day - but right now, just can't do that.
Next week Ava gets her shots. Wondering how she will do with that. Nervous, but I know it will be ok. We will get through it. It's hard to see her cry when she is tired - so when I know she is in a little bit of pain, it will be tough. But I will be there and let her know it will be ok.
I can't get over how much I love her and how much she has changed me.
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Back to reality!
Ava is getting so big! She is getting her own little personality and I just love her so much. She had a very low key first halloween. Being only 6 weeks and all - couldn't take her out trick or treating. But I dressed her up in a little black kitty outfit and got her a pumpkin. Took some pictures and that was her halloween. She did get out with her cousins to do some fall activities - well - she was just pushed around while they played in the hay!
It's getting to that point where I am getting back to reality. School started back up for me. I have three classes left for the main portion of my MBA and then 5 classes in HR. I will be happy when it's over, but glad to be back in a way to have something that I have to do. Its a good work up to work. At least I can do school and still be at home with Ava.
Not being able to see her for any period at a time is so heart breaking to me. She means the world to me and I will do anything to protect her and let her know that her mommy loves her so much. She means everything to me. She has changed my life for the better!
I am feeling rather well for just giving birth 6 weeks ago. Ava is getting to some points where she goes several hours at a time. I do feel I am getting a little more sleep - but she is not on a regular schedule - but she can go 5 hours at a time at night. However, lately she has been really stuffing so her breathing is a bit loud!
In two weeks she gets her first set of shots. A little nervous about it - because I know she will cry. But I will hold her and love her and let her know I am there!
It's getting to that point where I am getting back to reality. School started back up for me. I have three classes left for the main portion of my MBA and then 5 classes in HR. I will be happy when it's over, but glad to be back in a way to have something that I have to do. Its a good work up to work. At least I can do school and still be at home with Ava.
Not being able to see her for any period at a time is so heart breaking to me. She means the world to me and I will do anything to protect her and let her know that her mommy loves her so much. She means everything to me. She has changed my life for the better!
I am feeling rather well for just giving birth 6 weeks ago. Ava is getting to some points where she goes several hours at a time. I do feel I am getting a little more sleep - but she is not on a regular schedule - but she can go 5 hours at a time at night. However, lately she has been really stuffing so her breathing is a bit loud!
In two weeks she gets her first set of shots. A little nervous about it - because I know she will cry. But I will hold her and love her and let her know I am there!
Monday, October 10, 2011
Going strong at 1 month!
Ava had her 1 month appointment today! The time is going way to fast! But she is doing so well. As much as I wanted to do the breastfeeding, the formula has been really good for her. She seems so much more at ease and it's much easier on me that I don't have to be her only supplier of food. This way others can help!
All her growth is on target. She is just a perfect little baby. She now weights 8lbs 5 oz. She is now 20.5 inches long. Her head was growing well. I do have to say I could tell her head was growing because its getting much heavier. But she is starting to get some strength in her head and neck and is lifting it more.
She has the cutest faces all the time. I just stare at her and can't get enough of her. There are days I have just so tired and it gets hard, but I just look at her and its all worth it. I have noticed that she gets cranky when she hasn't pooped in a couple of days - which I would be cranky too! But then if you just hold her and just be patient - then she will go - and she will be much better!
I couldn't ask for a better baby. She is so good and when she is upset she is calmed very easy. She is getting more into a routine where at night she really does stick to the 3 hours. Sometimes during the day when she is up she will eat more. I was worried about that before but talking to the doctor - I feel better because its normal and she is gaining on target.
I am doing well. Like I said - I get a little tired and have gotten a little frustrated and felt like I wasn't a good mom. But I think that was the lack of sleep talking. I have been able to lose all the weight I gained plus some. So once I get cleared to exercise I look forward to getting back and losing more and toning. I am pretty happy with how I look, just want to tone more then lose.
Next month Ava will get her shots. Not looking forward to that as I think she will cry, but it's most needed. So we will see!
All her growth is on target. She is just a perfect little baby. She now weights 8lbs 5 oz. She is now 20.5 inches long. Her head was growing well. I do have to say I could tell her head was growing because its getting much heavier. But she is starting to get some strength in her head and neck and is lifting it more.
She has the cutest faces all the time. I just stare at her and can't get enough of her. There are days I have just so tired and it gets hard, but I just look at her and its all worth it. I have noticed that she gets cranky when she hasn't pooped in a couple of days - which I would be cranky too! But then if you just hold her and just be patient - then she will go - and she will be much better!
I couldn't ask for a better baby. She is so good and when she is upset she is calmed very easy. She is getting more into a routine where at night she really does stick to the 3 hours. Sometimes during the day when she is up she will eat more. I was worried about that before but talking to the doctor - I feel better because its normal and she is gaining on target.
I am doing well. Like I said - I get a little tired and have gotten a little frustrated and felt like I wasn't a good mom. But I think that was the lack of sleep talking. I have been able to lose all the weight I gained plus some. So once I get cleared to exercise I look forward to getting back and losing more and toning. I am pretty happy with how I look, just want to tone more then lose.
Next month Ava will get her shots. Not looking forward to that as I think she will cry, but it's most needed. So we will see!
Thursday, September 29, 2011
2 Weeks - Going to Fast!
It has been 2 weeks since my daughter came into my life. My life has changed and I wouldn't have it any other way. Even though I am exhausted and like my sleep and I am not getting as much as I did before, I am ok with that. She is worth the late nights, early mornings, the crying and fussiness. She is the most adorable person in the world - to me!
We have been working through the feedings. We tried breastfeeding, but that didn't work. Then we went to a non cow lik base formula, and that gave her so much gas and spit up and choking fits that scared me to death. Then after two choking fits in 4 hours, I decided to try something else. So we went to a cow milk based for gassy and fussiness. That has seemed to be much better. She hasn't had a choking fit since we switched her over. We are increasing her amount and she is gaining weight. I can see it in her face. She has her fussiness moments - like any child.
We are working on knowing her schedule and she is working on figuring out what life is. She does good in the morning and afternoon hours. She seems to be up during the night hours into the midnight hours. But once she calms down - she sleeps a good 4 hours. We are still working on getting her to sleep in the bassinet. She tends to sleep on mommy right now - but we are going to keep trying the bassinet so we all can have good sleeps!
I am very lucky to have such a wonderful daughter. She has the funniest faces and the most adorable noises. I could just eat her up!
We have been working through the feedings. We tried breastfeeding, but that didn't work. Then we went to a non cow lik base formula, and that gave her so much gas and spit up and choking fits that scared me to death. Then after two choking fits in 4 hours, I decided to try something else. So we went to a cow milk based for gassy and fussiness. That has seemed to be much better. She hasn't had a choking fit since we switched her over. We are increasing her amount and she is gaining weight. I can see it in her face. She has her fussiness moments - like any child.
We are working on knowing her schedule and she is working on figuring out what life is. She does good in the morning and afternoon hours. She seems to be up during the night hours into the midnight hours. But once she calms down - she sleeps a good 4 hours. We are still working on getting her to sleep in the bassinet. She tends to sleep on mommy right now - but we are going to keep trying the bassinet so we all can have good sleeps!
I am very lucky to have such a wonderful daughter. She has the funniest faces and the most adorable noises. I could just eat her up!
Saturday, September 24, 2011
Getting it Together
It has been just over a week since Ava was born. I am loving every minute I get to spend with her. It is very hard for me to be away from her, even if I am just going to bed. I love looking at her and watching her faces. She is the most beautiful girl in the world. I know I am her mother and all mother says things like that - but this one is true. She is the most precious baby girl!
We are getting into our groove. To me, the daytime is much easier then the night time. The last couple of days we have a routine down. We get up by 8am and we change her diaper, get fed, and go back to sleep. Then we do it again 2-3 hours later. She is now telling me when she is hungry by waking up. I might have to wake her up once or twice - but other then that she wakes up on her own and says - mommy feed me!
We tried breastfeeding but that didn't work. It wasn't that she wasn't doing it, it was my body wasn't giving her enough nutrients to satisfy her. I think it has to do with my surgery and the way I digest foods. She lost 11% of her weight from coming home to her first doctor's appointment, so that really scared me. We introduced formula, and breastfeeding, but it was just not enough. Since we have gone straight to formula, she seems much more relaxed and happier.
Once we can get the night routine down, I think we will be doing good. I have been able to get a little more sleep each night, but I still take naps during the day. I have a hard time putting her in the bassinet. I think she would be ok, but I am not ok, so she ends up sleeping on me. Probably not a good idea, but we will get there. She is only 9 days old!
We are getting into our groove. To me, the daytime is much easier then the night time. The last couple of days we have a routine down. We get up by 8am and we change her diaper, get fed, and go back to sleep. Then we do it again 2-3 hours later. She is now telling me when she is hungry by waking up. I might have to wake her up once or twice - but other then that she wakes up on her own and says - mommy feed me!
We tried breastfeeding but that didn't work. It wasn't that she wasn't doing it, it was my body wasn't giving her enough nutrients to satisfy her. I think it has to do with my surgery and the way I digest foods. She lost 11% of her weight from coming home to her first doctor's appointment, so that really scared me. We introduced formula, and breastfeeding, but it was just not enough. Since we have gone straight to formula, she seems much more relaxed and happier.
Once we can get the night routine down, I think we will be doing good. I have been able to get a little more sleep each night, but I still take naps during the day. I have a hard time putting her in the bassinet. I think she would be ok, but I am not ok, so she ends up sleeping on me. Probably not a good idea, but we will get there. She is only 9 days old!
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Ava!
Ava is finally here. And I am in love. She is the most beautiful baby! She was born September 15th and I couldn't wait for her to come.
Once I got to the hospital I just wanted her here. Things couldn't happen fast enough for me. We waited 5 hours before they started the inducing process. Then we had to wait 12 hours before the gave me the inducing drugs. Then I had to wait 3.5 hours for the pain meds. Then just 1 more hour for Ava!
The painful part of labor I would say really only lasted 3 hours. Once she was ready to come out - it happend so fast for me. I only remember having to push through 3 - maybe 4 contractions. I think I really only pushed for about 10 - 15 minutes. Then she was here!
My life has changed already and she is only 5 days old. I can't believe she is here and 5 days have already gone by. It's already going to fast for me. I can't bear to not be around her. I hate going to sleep if she isn't next to me. I don't really sleep right now because I just want to make sure she is ok. Because she can't tell me - how will I know.
I am learning different things about being a mom. You will do anything for your child. You don't know what it is like until you hold your child in your arms and they look at you. The bond begins. I love her! I can't say it enough.
Ava is my sweet dream. She is everything I ever wanted in a daughter! It is such an indescribable feeling. I am in LOVE!
Once I got to the hospital I just wanted her here. Things couldn't happen fast enough for me. We waited 5 hours before they started the inducing process. Then we had to wait 12 hours before the gave me the inducing drugs. Then I had to wait 3.5 hours for the pain meds. Then just 1 more hour for Ava!
The painful part of labor I would say really only lasted 3 hours. Once she was ready to come out - it happend so fast for me. I only remember having to push through 3 - maybe 4 contractions. I think I really only pushed for about 10 - 15 minutes. Then she was here!
My life has changed already and she is only 5 days old. I can't believe she is here and 5 days have already gone by. It's already going to fast for me. I can't bear to not be around her. I hate going to sleep if she isn't next to me. I don't really sleep right now because I just want to make sure she is ok. Because she can't tell me - how will I know.
I am learning different things about being a mom. You will do anything for your child. You don't know what it is like until you hold your child in your arms and they look at you. The bond begins. I love her! I can't say it enough.
Ava is my sweet dream. She is everything I ever wanted in a daughter! It is such an indescribable feeling. I am in LOVE!
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