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April was a tough month, but at the end of the month things got much better. So many thoughts going through my head - where do I start?!

Work is getting busy, which has been great. The day goes by fast and I am learning. Went to training in Charlotte and got sick. That's where it all started! Appartently going through gastric bypass there are several post surgery things you go through that not everyone tells you. The loss of hair is a big one (well for me). I am dealing with it, but I don't like it. Thankfully I don't have to get my gall bladder out since it's already gone, but apparently after 100 pounds you have the gall bladder pain and most people need to get it removed. And now I find out that an internal hernia can occure and most likely needs to be removed. The hernia can cause infections and lots of pain. This is what I currently have - however, nothing can be done right now. But can I tell you - the pain it causes! I was out of work for 3 days! Probably could have come back sooner however, I was in training away from home for the first 2 days without any drugs and answers! So for the time being if I can bare the pain - the better. However, so far no pain - and doctor says - baby will probably help it!

Ok - on to fun stuff! Baby!! I have this new found love. I have become attached to my baby and it isn't even born yet. But I know my motherly feelings are developing! Everything I do going forward is for my child and now I know how others feel.

So - Monday I had a great doctor's appointment. I got to see the baby move and the heart beat going. And... the doctor told me - I am having.... a ..... GIRL! I couldn't believe it. The doctor said she is doing great - everything looks normal and I just have to keep doing what I am doing. I haven't gain any weight - but they didn't seem so concerned with that right now. As long as I am eating and taking my pills and helping the baby grow - that's what is important.

A GIRL! Can you believe it. Since Monday - my life changed. It has hit me more and I am in the mode to plan for her arrival. I am 20 weeks along and hope to have 20 weeks to finish preparing. I love being pregnant! It's such a great feeling! Feeling her move and hearing her heart beat! It's the greatest feeling in the world. In 8 weeks I get to see her again at another sonogram. I can't wait! I miss seeing her! I know - silly - but I love her!