Life is Good!

It's been awhile, over a month but I am trying to get back to blogging. It really has helped me put down my feelings and share my thoughts. I have been up and down on this whole surgery thing. Meaning, I have good days and bad days... which is normal in life. There are days I hate food because I can't seem to keep anything down, or I really want that cupcake and I know I shouldn't. But then there are days where I do really good. I get my vitamin intake - I am doing well on protein and the weight goes down!

I finally went out this week and bought new clothes. Not many, just some to get be by right now. I got two pairs of jeans, a pair of pants for work, and 2 sweaters. Thinking I want to go out and get 1-2 more sweaters and one more pair of pants for work. I knew my clothes were big on me, but I didn't know how big. I finally looked at my whole self in the mirror and saw - I look awful in these clothes. It was time. This shopping experience was the best one I have had in probably my entire life. I am now in sizes I don't remember. It has been over 10 years since I had these sizes and felt great. I had to try on 4 pairs of jeans to get to the right size. And I didn't have to go up... I was trying on smaller sizes!! It sure does help your self confidence when that happens.

I have lost a total of 77 pounds. I was in high school last time I weighed this amount. I never thought I could do it. But now is the hard part... 65 more pounds to go... and a whole lot more exercising to do. I can't keep giving excuses - I will no longer be that size again and if I don't get up and move - I could be. I am so much more happier and I just have to keep going.

Of course there are bad days, but as time goes on - I am learning. It's a whole change. This is for the rest of your life. You have to be ready for that. You won't be able to eat like you have in the past. One of the hardest parts I have been dealing with, is when I am upset I used to go for the comfort fatty foods. I can't do that any more... I am finding a better way to deal with being upset. The best thing... going for that walk!

My second class is coming to an end. I have 1 assignment left and then I am on to Business Law. Six more weeks of school then I am taking a little break.

I feel good. I am happy and I am staying busy. That's what I wanted. Life is good!