I am finding the beauty of food again. It has now been over a month since I had solid "normal" food. I believe that my sense of smell has really heighten. I think I can smell a fried piece of meat a mile away. But as I go through this journey, I now appreciate food more. Before it was there to comfort me in my sad times, happy times, and all the times in between. Now it's there to give me energy and make sure I am healthy. I now eat because I have to - not because I want to. Don't get me wrong, those burgers, and fried chickens smell great and I want them. But I actually rethink about it. Do I really want to destroy everything I have worked for these last 5 months? All the pain and frustration... NOPE! I now take my time, and still drink my meals... but soon I will be able to enjoy each and every bit and now I am doing good.
Going into this next step that I started Friday has really made me think about all the choices I have. And I know as time goes on I get more and more choices. Mashed potatoes settled very well. The flavor and just having something different was fantastic. Because they settled well I thought I would try stuffing. Not really sure if I was supposed to have it - but I thought, it is made the same way as mashed potatoes. bread and herbs. So I went for it. That filled me up way faster then the potatoes. I guess I am just getting really sick of soup, pudding and yogurt. Soon enough I will be able to eat tuna and chicken!! I have now made my shakes a lot better. I add fresh fruit or frozen berries. Ahh... the choices!
Careful what you eat that's not on your list, my dear!:)
ReplyDeleteOtherwise, I'm wishing the best for you still. Are you going back to your Mom's anytime soon? We'll be out of town for a few weeks...but, can catch up with you in August!
Something I was thinking more about recently, is that you really should document your weight loss through picture. Try wearing the same outfit once a week, and have a photo taken. Sometimes when you're living it, you don't see it as vividly. But, just think how dramatic a wall of photos would be! Good luck sweetie:)
The picture idea is a great idea. I will have to do that. I know I can really tell with my pants. I have more room. Not sure when I will be back at Mom's. I am going back to work this week and started school today. But we will catch up in August for sure!
ReplyDeleteLove Ya!