Mental Health

Sometimes your body can trick you. I thought I was feeling like a million bucks - but I think I was feeling like 5 bucks! Did a little to much on Saturday and slept a little more on Sunday. However, I managed to get out last night and did see the 4th of July fireworks! I was around family and it was nice. I took it easy most of the day - and then just for a couple of hours sat outside and watch everyone eat hot dogs and hamburgers.

Its such a different feeling though. Some people were like - why would you sit there and watch us eat food that you can't have. I think it's because I know I can't have it - and I know if I did that it would make me really ill. I didn't go through all this to just ruin it because I want a bit of potato salad or a hot dog. Don't get me wrong - it did look and smell really good. But this is my life now. And I am happy with that. Something that I heard recently - if you have a healthy head - you will have a healthy body. My head hasn't been healthy for a long time and going through this process has really helped me change my mental state to help change my health state. Of course I could have had a tummy tuck, and lypo but that just changes the out side - it doesn't change the inside. If I did that I would be how I am today in 6 months. This is my life - this isn't just a phase!