Loved and Blessed

I don't know when she will arrive. How she will look and how she will act. But I do know that I love her and I will do my best to raise her right. I have lots of hopes and dreams for my child and all I can do is love her and show her that anything is possible.

I know all I want to do is protect her - but she will get hurt. But that's all part of life. Getting hurt, learning and moving forward from that hurt. We will all be there for her and love her and show her the way. What she does with it, that is up to her.

I am scared. I am excited. I am already tired! But I know if I wasn't ready for this chapter in my life, then it wouldn't have happend. There are reasons why I am with Eric. There are reasons why Ava is our daughter. There are reasons why now. I don't know all the reasons, but God does. And that is all that matters.

We are down to single weeks, or double digit days to her arrival. I just hope I did good to bring her into the world. From the moment I knew I was pregnant I was scared to think that she wouldn't grow well or she would be missing some key element because of my surgery. However, from what we can gather from the last appointment - she has been growing well. She has been on target!

I am trying to figure out her schedule in my belly. But I can't. Right now I know that between the hours of 9pm-11pm is her prime up time. During the work day she is up and about. On the weekends she is sluggish like her mom! I know things will change when she is welcomed to the world. It's just fun to try and figure it out.

I can't wait for her to meet her family that has loved her from day 1. She isn't even born yet, and there are so many people praying for her and who love her. I have never felt so blessed.

Getting Bigger! Getting Ready! Oy!

I have a 5 pound baby in me right now! I can't believe how she has been growing. It is so true that the last trimester has the fastest growth time. I feel really small compared to some other moms to be, but that is ok. I am my own person and I know that my baby girl is going to be ok. Got new pictures yesterday. Because how she is positioned I got pictures of her head. She is on target for growth at 34 weeks. 5 pounds and in the right position to be delivered. Kind of freaked me out a little now that I know she is with head down. But I was told that is normal and she will be like that until she is born.

She is moving all around and is getting into a routine. She is more of a night baby I believe - but does have her moments during the day.

The house is getting in order. Working on organizing things and making sure I have everything for her arrival. The crib is in progress of getting up - so I know it will be together by the time she gets here. I can't wait to see it all put together.

I am nervous and hope that I will be a good mother. I don't know what to expect. You can read every book but it isn't real until the baby comes. Then the work begins.

Gain another 2 pounds in 2 weeks. I believe I have gained a total of 11-12 pounds - and to think, 5 of that right now is her - kinda makes me happy. I have known others to gain 30-40 pounds. I am glad I am not there.

5-6 weeks to go - it's almost time!